I'm so lucky I got to do that for the first three years of her life. I think it's very important for there to be a strong bond between babies and moms, what better way to build that bond by being the sole caregiver? I know. I know. Don't want to start a debate here about stay at home vs working mommy. Like I said, I was lucky enough to, but I know there are people out there who have to work, like how I find myself in this point in time. And no, I don't get bored...I can pretty much keep myself and my kid entertained for days with crafts and activities, etc. Anyways, I prefer to be at home with my kid. To each their own.
Baby A and Family are back from India, which means unpacking, laundry, and sorting allllll freaking week for me. As well as daily routine that we had established before they went away. So far so good, Baby A has been on "schedule" so far today as far as nap is concerned. But it's a total fluke from being jet lagged, I think.
Today is also Martin Luther King Day! So, Happy MLK day! Here's a quote that I found that spoke to me:
"I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear." -MLK
Often times, I find myself loathing things, situations, people even. I hold grudges when I know I am not supposed to, I get mad instead of being patient, I go on tirades about ridiculous things that I know in my heart I should just let go. I have to stop a moment and realize how I am acting, and force myself to change my thought process.
A friend and I were talking the other day, about friendships, about how sometimes we let our feelings unravel, how we really should be acting in certain situations, but choose to go down the darker path. We let our emotions get the best of us and act a bit unbecoming, selfish and even immature. We are all growing, striving to be better people, or at least I know I am.
Holding on to the hate only makes us feel worse. There is no growth there. It's not healthy to continue to drag our emotions down with bickering and arguments that leave bitterness behind. By letting it go, we have the ability to see past the fighting and we start to focus on what's more important in life.
Sometimes by letting it go, it means to let go of the friendship. Sometimes you grow away from people, and I have learned that that is alright! It happens! But accepting it is the first step in healing. When it's not working out and you've tried, why force it? It only makes the situation worse.
I love my friends, but if anyone knows me, they would know that I often times put them on the back burner. But it's not because I want to. I've always been this way and trust me, I'm working on it...I guess I feel like society has put so much pressure on friendships and cultivating these friendships as a means to show how successful you are in life (why else would anyone want 1,000,000,000 friends on Facebook?) I don't feel like this is right, yes I enjoy the company, it's fun, we drink, socialize talk about things we can relate to... But I don't NEED my friends in order to be a happier person. I prefer to have them, but much like how epicureans think, it's not a necessity for me. (and I have YET to find like minded people--why are people so goddamn touchy about what it means to have friends??)
Anyways, I've rambled on enough. To close my train of thoughts, it's best to do what you love, and give love in return instead of focusing on the negative. Holding on to hate is exhausting. And frankly, I don't have the time or energy to wallow in the negativity. So, if you aren't a happy person or don't know how to make yourself happy, maybe letting go of the negativity in your life is something you should work on.
Well, that's enough for today. You bored? Yes? Oh well, my blog, my rules.
Baby A should be waking up from nap soon, catch you all later.
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